Every

Fucking

Time.

Mimpi

Ingatkan bila penat boleh lah tido awal, tapi harapann..

Mimpi kene bomb sampai terjaga tersentak berdebar debar takut. 

Mimpi tengah lari nak kena tembak.

Mimpi duduk tempat berdebu debu rasa muka kotor sangat. 

Pastu rasa kulit tegang sangat, gatal yang jenis merenyam tu. 

Esok bangun kuku penuh darah. Skin merekah-rekah. Rasa tangan kaki macam bengkak in pain. Sedih meleleleh betul tengok skin macam ni. 

Pegi rendam ayaq panas. Tapi pastu kene mandi air karat jugak. zz. Tatau la macam mana nak hidup kalau tetibe kene hidup susah mandi air sungai kotor hari hari, mesti berkudis je kulit lepas tu. 

T_T

Alhamdulillah hidup lagi kau

Last weekend was a looooooooong weekend. 

I choose to stay in KL cuz mom not gonna be there. Fwensie going back to hometown, some even off to holiday.

Me? 

Home. Watching movie back to back on Netflix and Popcorn. Scroll IG and FB for thousand times. Trying hard to complete monthly report and spring cleaning, which these two settled on 2AM the next day. lalala

Most of my friend know, Farah sejenis manusia tak pernah lekat dekat rumah. But I break my own record. Sariyanto pon tak start langsung. I cooked to eat. Insane right. 

Then, the next working day which is Tuesday, I'm off to work and was glad and happy to be in the blue room. This. Is. Not. Normal. Why do I feel so happy to be in the office? I even skipping myself going upstairs. Oh Lord.

So, yesterday, Pija said she was bored. We met at Sentral. She was there with smile and open arms ready to hug. The first sentence that came out from this lady was; 

"Alhamdulillah Farah hidup lagi aku ingat dah mati melekat kat rumah tiga hari, selamat lagi kawan aku alhamdulillah."

K.

The Deal is Sealed

Either you find someone before 32, or I will. 

Say It To My Face

because I am fucking good ignorant.

I might as well try not to be bothered with all this bullshit you create.

Cita-cita

Hari-hari cita-cita nak hupdate blog.

5 bulan kemudian masih gagal. Haha.

2016 tahun paling gamble. I run from home. Well tade la larik sangat, but without my dad's consent. He asked to stay and help him, but something happened, I couldn't stay any longer, else I'll be the real tanggang.

Apparently, when things happened, this job offer me the best thing that I could have. Something that I wouldn't dare to take last two years because I don't find my passion in it. Tapi sebab nak lari, aku accept it and just go for it.

So here I am. A network engineer. Life is nerd I tell you. Sekarang da faham la kenapa budak IT mostly gemuk, specky, nerd, muka stone, skema. HAHA. Let see how long I can maintain my figure. Life apparently become just like an engineer should be. Sleepy, stone and shabby.

Travelogue : Khaosan Road, Bangkok (Part 4)

Masa in between berjalan-jalan tengok orang kat Pratunam tu, ada la orang local suggest kitorang pegi Khaosan. Sebab barang kat sana murah. Nak cari aksesori ke, kain ke, boleh dapat below than 100 bhat. Kita sebagai perempuan yang ta tahan godaan, memang terliur la. 

So, malam tu, tahan cab, pegi Khaosan Road the ChinaTown of Bangkok. Expectation kitorang macam dalam cerita Hangover. Happening with all the stalls, club, peoples and stuff. Well, ChinaTown mana punya sunyi kan? Apparently, when we arrived, memang krik krik sangat. Masa tu pukul 9. Papan tanda ChinaTown tu je paling gemilang. Semua warna merah merah kuning. But that's it. Yang menjual pon seciput je. Tau tak macam jalan dekat pasar malam selorong? dalam 300m camtu, habis. But semua pon food tepi jalan yang panggang-panggang. Tade pon yang seperti diuar-uarkan. 

Lepas tu bila tanya mana night market kat sini, diorang cakap da tutup pukul 6 tadi. WHAT THE HELL? tu pasar petang namanya bukan malam. pekebende laaaaa. 

Terus grab cab pegi Nana. Haaa Nana ni kawasan gelap. Saje je pegi tengok. Selambe je pepondan ni pakai bra dengan gstring dia. Some ladyboy ni still have their D but still wear minimal panties. Kau ghase? hahahahah

Ade satu club memang penuh gilaaaa masa jenguk jenguk pintu, diorang kat dalam tengah parti buih with girls inside the pool. perghhh ni memang jahanam. Kitorang da tergelak-gelak tengok orang-orang mabuk dok melayan ladyboy la, all those plastic, geli gila. 

Ade la sejam duduk kat area tu tengok ragam orang. But it was a small area. KL punya club lagi besar kot? Jahanam betul. 

Oh suprisingly, tak kena kacau pon. People pelik la tengok we bunch of girls dok meliar kat situ without any boys guarding us, tapi tade pon kena kacau, kena ngorat. Kalau kat sini, jalan tepi tepi pon da ade tikus merenyam. Zzz