February 6, 2017

I Have So Many Shit To Settle

And

I

Do

Nothing

About

It.

(One) because it is not work related (Two) because I need the internet to settle them but the internet at home means nothing, I usually end up stare at this-circle-loading-fuck-shit blank phone for hours. (Three) I vacuum my room almost everyday day it takes 40 mins over my 24 hours (Four) I have so many things to write but I couldn't because hmm, malas cakap ah satgi aku EMO PETALA LAPAN. Pikior pasai mende tu pon dah meruap ruap nak meletup gunung berapi dalam hati ni haa.

I feel like deactivating my FB and IG. Perhaps I shall put my phone aside too. I just wanna lay down and think nothing which impossible.

*tetibe berair mata*

why baby why


January 17, 2017

365 hari

Baru 17 hari. 

Rasa nak roboh. 

Rasa semua tua tua. Tahu perempuan memang spesis diam cakap belakang, tapi kemonnnnnnnnnnnnn. 

Supervisor dulu cakap "Tak boleh tolerate ape ape berkenaan idung dengan telinga. Sebab you cant control not to smell anything or listen to anything. At least mata boleh tutup."

Tambah lagi azam tahun ni. Tanak marah marah. Lantok la apo nak jadi jadi. Nanti dah tak rasa hidup kek keyel mule la terindu rindu.

January 3, 2017

First day at new home

My life has been upside down last two weeks after Tuan Rumah send new contract to sign. After going through every single word, I dont think I am willing to pay 400 for a room. With internet, phone and sort. So, kelam kabut cari rumah. 3 hari 3 malam tenung fon bukak mudah dengan ibilik. Alhamdulillah jumpa bilik. I pay half from previous room so everything is half. Half space, manual machine, no living room, no wifi. Everyhing is no no. 

Dua hari pindah randah (thank god Sariyanto besar boleh put everything in the car), I said to Pija I dont wanna stay home. Yet. Can we go somewhere else? Tau dia bawak pi mana? Penang. hmmmkay. 

So last night was the very first time sleeping in my new room. I. Feel. So. Restless. 

The room was half small from my previous room and it has gap on top of the ceiling  sebab bilik ni macam new partition on living room. Whenever people switch on the lamp dekat hallway, automatik lampu masuk bilik aku. So jadi macam cerah. Aku pulak spesis tido dalam gelap. Memang merana. 😢 Akak bilik sebelah (kalau tak silap nama dia Kak Siti. So I have my own Kak Siti guysss feeling macam Vivy) ni meniaga makanan. Pagi ni terjaga at four AM because (one) room was brighter, aku ingat aku lambat gila pegi keje padahal baru pukul pat pagi, (two) bau nasik lemak oh-mai-god. Faham tak bau nasik lemak tu agung dia macam mana? Bau ayam guring bau sambal bau ikan bilis. Rasa macam nak tendang diri sendiri masa pujuk perut suruh tido. Then at 7 suddenly bilik gelap. Gelap gelap campur hujan but it was time to get ready for work. 

So yeah, let see how long my body gonna take to adapt this. If I am able to sleep through the night during the next 362 days, I'll pat myself at the back. Sebab aku tak suka gila tido dalam cerah sumpah boleh mintak penampo.